Trip to India, Changing Majors, And Moving?!!

It has literally been a year since I last posted a blog... BUT I have good reasons. (kind of)

First, I went on a trip to India for like 2 months.

Second, I started school again, so homework and all.

Third, I totally forgot I had a blog.

Well, I'm back now and hopefully I can continue to write more. Even if there's literally no one reading, it feels nice to write it, and put it out somewhere.

A lot has happened since I last wrote. Like I said, I went on a family trip to India. That was just fabulous. I went to visit my family there and I had a lovely time. Didn't do anything exciting, but being with family was good enough. 

After that, I started school again. (yay stress) That ended and then it was winter break. I did absolutely NOTHING, which is exactly what you want to do over a long 2 month break from college. I also discovered new YouTubers and have been obsessed with them ever since. (care to know who they are?) 

Once school started again I had a new major in mind. (again) This time I have decided to go with an Economics major and I later found out that I am one course away from a Stats minor, so I've decided to finish that as well. I also have a shit ton of credits to make up, so I will be taking Accounting courses. I don't know if I like Accounting or not, but we'll see. If I do, I will be taking a couple because it's apparently good to have on your resume. Also because I have to make up a lot of credits, I will have to take summer and winter courses as well as an extra year of 2 courses.... just great.

After that we (my family) did something we have been wanting to do for about a year now. WE MOVED!!! Yep, we have looked and looked for a house and we finally found it. I am not completely in love with it, but we have to sacrifice some things for other greater things. Our old house was a .21 acre land with 1,800 sqft house. It only had 3 rooms and 2 bathrooms. Now we moved to a 4.4 acre land with 2,800 sqft house. And this house has 6 bedroom and 3 bathroom. And guess who got the master bedroom with an private bathroom? (This spoiled girl) And the old house is being sold off, sadly. We wanted to keep it and rent it out so we would still technically own it, but renting with wood floors and marble counters is a no-no, so we are selling it. 15 years of my childhood has been spent in that house and I am sad to say, we won't have it anymore. 

Moving houses was probably the most exciting thing that has happened this year. I currently have about 2 weeks of summer vacation left before I start school again. And hopefully, fingers-crossed, this major works out. It is the first major that I have enjoyed taking, so I am praying that things work out for me. 

Other than that I seriously hope to continue writing more blog posts, just to have a side thing to do and keep myself sane for the next year or two. 

(Also, I drank coffee at 12am thinking that it won't effect me because it usually doesn't, but boy was a wrong today, because it's currently 1:20am and I am WIDE AWAKE. But yeah, hopefully I can slowly drift off to sleep)

Prom 2015

Today is the day of Prom 2015. 

I, obviously, am not going since I am a sophomore in college, but since my friends are still in high school, I get to be excited about it. 

Ria and Haley decided to go get their hair done at around 10-10:30 and she told me she would get home at about 12:30 ish or she would text me if she got there before. 

So I am getting ready at 11:30 when I get a text from her. It read "HELP IM HAVING A PROM EMERGENCY". I thought she was just messing with me and I asked what happened. Apparently the lady, who Ria paid $75 to do her hair, did a shit job. She told me her hair looked like a nest. 

So I had to stop in the middle of getting ready and basically quickly change and leave to go help her. She only lives like 3 blocks away from me, so it didn't take that long. When I got there, her hair wasn't too bad. I was expecting worse. It was very poofy at certain area and frizzy. It also was very random. Ria wanted the lady to loosely side-braid her hair and make it go into a bun, but the lady clearly didn't know what she was doing. 

I managed to sort of de-poof her hair and clean it up a bit. She was still iffy about it, but towards the end, she ended up liking it. So I was there helping her and Haley get ready. Haley had to leave to go get ready and stuff and I told Ria I would leave once we got pictures together. 

So her mom made me mac-n-cheese and we sat and talked. Then she started getting ready. Jake came with his parents and they all started taking pictures. Ria, I kid you not, literally looked like a movie star. And Jake was such a cutie in his suit. They were adorable. They left after pictures to go to Haley's house to take more pictures there. Then I stayed at Ria's house while her parents and Jakes parents mingled for a bit and then it was time to go to the grand march. The grand march, for those who don't know, is where the couples and group, get their name announced and they walk up on stage doing things or pose and stuff and the parents get to take pictures. I went with Ria's parents and grandparents. I am in love with her grandma. Her and Dani, Ria's mom, are so similar. I just love it. So after the grand march and taking pictures, we left. I decided to go back home so I said my good-byes and left. 

Once I got home, I ate and played foot-ball with my brothers. Then I think I stayed in my bed until me and my mom went to the gym. I ran for 15 minutes. Which I am so proud of. I usually hate running. It's something I can never get myself to do. I end up quitting after 2 minutes and today I literally pushed myself to do 15 minutes. It wasn't easy at all, but I am glad I did it. 

Then I came home, showered, ate, and I'll probably end up watching something depending on what time it is. It's 10:45. I'll think about it. 

Nails And Froyo Date

So yesterday was a fun day. 

Well, the morning wasn't, but the evening turned out to be fun.

It was Friday yesterday so I, of course, had school. I only have one class now since I dropped out of the other one. God that feels good! Well, I lost my (religious) necklace. It wasn't anything special to look at and it wasn't expensive, but it means a great deal to me and my family. So I lost that necklace and I think it might've been from when I went to gym on Wednesday, and I think I remember taking it off.... Wait. I don't really remember taking it off.... Shit. 

Well, now I don't have any clue where it might be. Anyway so I went to 3 different lost and found places at school and no one had it. The necklace has a little pouchy thing hanging from the string and whenever someone loses it, my mom likes to be negative and say 'someone probably found it and they probably thought there's money in the pouch or something valuable and they probably ripped it open (to find there's nothing valuable to them) and then threw it away instead of turning it in".

Well, I'm  trying to stay positive, and I'm hoping it will turn up in the lost or found or it's in my house somewhere and I just can't find it. It's stressing me out!!!

But after all of that, I came home. I did stuff. And then I went to pick up my brother from school and my mom wanted us to go do some grocery shopping and I asked my friend Maria if she wanted to hang out that day or the next day. She told me her and Haley are going to get their nails done for prom on Saturday. I totally forgot prom was on Saturday!! So I went with them to get their nails done. I didn't want to get mine done since I just recently took my gel nails off and I am really liking not having nails done. I want to give my nails a little break and let it heal a little...

So after getting their nails done, we went to get some fro-yo!!! Sooo flipping good! It had been a while. We also went to David's Bridal to go look for some, aw shit the word is not coming in my head. I had to look it up... It's a garter.. That's so sad. Haley wanted to get a garter for prom so we went there and there was a white lace with a little blue bow, which Haley was not about it since her dress was pink, but she got it anyway just because it's a garter.. 

We went to Marshall's after that and we looked around for a long time. I got a nice top. It's very summery and I really like it. I usually struggle to find a top like that where it's not scooting down my shoulder and then my (non-existing) boobs pop out. But yeah. It was only $9.99 so I am very happy with my purchase.

After that we went back to Ria's house. We had invited Devon (their friend. I don't know if I should call him my friend. We've hung out quite a few times, with the group, but I don't know if we're comfortable enough to call each other friends.) Ria's boyfriend Jake also ended up coming, but instantly regretted it when he found out that Ria was going to be doing Haley's make up. He decided to go to Taco-Bell to get something to eat. 

We saw Devon drive back and forth like 7 times. We had no idea what he was doing. Ria and them were all in the group text and we could see his and Jake's conversations, but he wouldn't come in. He finally came in after Jake got back from Taco-Bell. Apparently Devon thought me, Ria and Haley weren't home because her car wasn't in the driveway (she left it at school), so he didn't want to come in. Once he did and he found out about what we were going, he was also not very happy about the make up plan.

It ended up being a really fun night. Haley had to leave to get ready for prom and take a bath at 8. After she left, Ria started cleaning up her room, like how she always does. It's her thing. And she brought down he sticky bra for her dress and instantly Devon and Jake were drawn to that thing. Maria had to give them her old pair because they wanted to open the new one and play with it. 

Jake and Devon played with those sticky bra the whole night. They would try it on, throw it at the wall and see if it sticks, throw it up at the ceiling, hi-five each other to make a weird cuppy noise, wrapped it around a stick to make a club-thing, and used it as a knee pads. They were like little boys. Me and Ria would literally laughed at everything they did with those bras. It was a fun night.

I went home around 10 and decided to come back the next day to help her get ready for prom.  

It's Official, I Have Anxiety

I had my first meeting with my counselor. We got talking about things and I told her about how I had been feeling.

Needless to say, I have anxiety. I don't know if it's official if a counselor says it. I don't know who can officially categorize me into the anxious group, but she believes I have anxiety.

She says it's pretty bad too, which was a surprise. I thought it might've been low.

She wants me to exercise more vigorously, go get a physical check up, and taught me a breathing exercise. She also recommended pills, but I'm not a big pill believer. 

I also made another appointment to see her because she says I NEED to.

Do I tell my parents? Do I even bother? Will they get mad at me? or help me?

I don't know. 

I told my friend who lives in New York and she replied "no, you're fine."

Got to admit, that hurt. 

Counseling

I just did 3 things that have me stressing like crazy.

1. I went and talked to my advisor about my classes. 

2. I went to talk to my professor about dropping out.

3. I made an appointment to see a counselor. 

I am buzzing, but I feel like I am going to have panic attack soon.

I nearly cried in the bathroom and in front of both my advisor and professor. 

It feels good. 

I am worried about the counseling though. I have never done it before and I am worried how it's gong to go. I feel like I might cry in front of the counselor.
So that happened Friday. Today is Monday.
On Saturday, my mom woke me up early because we were planning on going to see this house but that didn't happen because the other people couldn't make it. Instead we did a major spring clean up. I cleaned up my whole room, put away my winter jackets, changed my sheets and duvet, and moved the big plants out of my room and put it outside.
Then I baked some cookies and found out that my cousin was going to celebrate her birthday that day. She has messaged me to come over at 3 and I got her message at 5. We went over, played outside, cut her cake, bought some pizza, watched tv, and I fell asleep.
Then on Sunday, I woke up early and we actually went to see the house. It was much smaller than I thought it would be. I really like the interior of the house, but the layout is a bit weird. There are a lot of random unnecessary doors and the rooms were a bit weird as well. My dad also thinks that there might be a water leakage in the basement, which isn't good. They have a 5 car garage which was really nice and the yard was huge, but I don't like it overall. I think it could be a bit bigger, the house itself.
My dad found another house a little bit further away from that house which looks nice, he said. We might go look at that as well.
Now it's Wednesday and realized I forgot to post this. Whoops.

The End

I seriously can't do it. I couldn't stay awake for my first class. My FIRST class. ugh. It's going to be a long day.

Basically just had a mini panic attack walking in the hallways. I was going to go use the bathroom so that worked out well. Seriously though.
I have sat here eating and watching videos for the past 2 hours and I don't want this break to be over! I don't want to go to class. I am not ready for this.
So I got an email from my advisor and she says that she sees that I am struggling with my class and wondered if I would want to come in to talk to her and get some help. What I would like to stop coming to school or not be a math major. I don't know if it's just school itself that gets me all stressed out or the fact that I am majoring in something that I absolutely hate and am horrible at. I don't know.
But I don't want to go to my next class, but at the same time I want to get it over with and the day and just go home.
*me enjoying life *notices the time *time for class *hates life.
I don't like this.

End Of Spring Break

Today is the last day of my Spring Break.

I. Am. Heart. Broken.

I just turned on my alarm for school and I'm pretty emotional. But at least I only have 2 days of school this week. Which is alright. None would've been better.

Nothing exciting. I went to the gym and worked my ass off. I am going to try to work harder in the gym and stop eating so much junk food. We all know that's not really going to happen, but a girl can HOPE! 

Today was another cloudy/raining day. LOVED it! But it was a little chilly, which I'm not about. 

I also flipping stubbed my pinky finger nail and it hurts like hell. I have gel nails on at the moment and I am afraid my actual nail might be broken inside. It's the type of pain that lingers around for a really long time. 

Any way. It is already 10:55 pm. I should go to bed before I fall asleep driving to school tomorrow and die. *knocks on wood.
I also need to prepare for school so I have to wake up extra early. Haven't made my lunch or packed my bags. Whoops.